Architects are Interesting--They Think Art, Corp. Struture, & Dev Simultaneously. "You Don't See My Vision?"
A Love for Artistic Expression, Drives Passion for Systems & Design. Discovery Work On Myself.
Architectural Nature
The Natural tendency to find "Art" or "Meaning" within software engineering breathes an innate desire to contemplate the "Design/Architecture" of systems. Yet, I don't fully understand the way I think.
1. I'm left-handed—forever trying to adopt right-handed practices growing up. Unorthodox adaptations had to be made.
2. I was Diagnosed with some kind of "bullshit giftedness / spatial visualization", which I feel like they were just calling me neurodivergent…I honestly can't tell.
Due to my Artistic Nature, I have a strong inclination/tendency to "visualize the larger picture" at scale before thinking about building. It's debatable whether or not this Creative Trait is a "flaw or feature" of a left-handed brain.
You can make the argument for either. You can claim it as "weird" or "unorthodox" thinking. Or, it could also be seen as Artistic I suppose. It is surprisingly difficult to understand people at a deeper level esp. when we are different. It's hard for me to re-wire this part of my brain, and it affects the other engineers at work. "You Think Reversed" - SWE CoWorkers
Still-Life: [05-17-2017]
Longer Goals in Mind
Because I think I have been "unorthodox thinking" my entire life, I cannot stop but think about a project's Solution->Architect->System->Design->Software, in this exact order. A large part of my brain operates in a top-down, big-to-small approach. A lot of SWE people tell me this order of thoughts is reversed.
I notice a lot of right-handed people actually describe this thinking as wrong. And then when I meet left-handed people, they often agree with the way I see a project. It's actually very interesting when I think about, the way that I think. "You have the thinking reversed buddy..". I know…Does that make me autistic? For some odd reason, I am stubbornly thinking opposite, like my internal compiler is cursed... I often think the wrong way at school or at work (observation)
Growing up, I tried my best to kick right-footed, shoot right, write right-handed, to "fit in, and unlock the proper way in society". I guess more work has to be done before I can become ambidextrous.
I have to learn how to accept myself. It's exactly a flaw and trait in Software Engineering. A Creative, who sees the World through a Business Lens and Codes.
